So when I got back, our nurse (the same one that ordered the c. diff test yesterday) told me that Raya was positive for c. diff. GREAT. I was and still am SO ANGRY that my child who was free of infectious disease & illness when we came here now has something that, from what I've read, is frequently contracted in hospitals, is difficult to get rid of, and can have recurrences. An illness that's difficult to get rid of that causes diarrhea is the LAST thing that my gastroenterologically-challenged baby needs!! We've worked SO HARD to get her to gain weight and maintain a somewhat healthy body and we've done a pretty dang good job of it considering what we've been up against, and now thanks to an illness that was most likely contracted during this hospital stay, that is now being compromised. All we came here for was to give her IV fluids so that we could safely stop feeding her for 24 hours (which turned into 46 because nobody started pedialyte when they were supposed to) to give her stomach a break and so that she could get a GJ tube, which has turned out to not be the band-aid solution that I had hoped it would be since she's still throwing up anyway. Tomorrow I will be researching protocols for putting certain patients in rooms together and asking some Angry Mommy questions.
I know that things usually seem worse late at night when I get tired but tonight I am very angry and frustrated and I feel like somebody just turned off the light that was at the end of this tunnel. With the c. diff, there's no telling when she'll get to go home because that's going to (at least I'm anticipating that it will) make it more difficult to balance the input-output of her fluids, especially since the amount of draining we're doing with her right now hasn't been quite enough to keep her from vomiting. Right now, I just want to take her home & take care of her myself because I'm starting to feel like too many cooks are spoiling the broth. I guess we'll see what tomorrow brings.